cassie's life . PHJ is me

i think i better start to type stupid journal , or else i won't be able to type again untill .. next month !!?
holly cow . haha , i am really  .. a lazy person .

that forum that i've joined  is planning to go to thai for mirotic concert next june .
the administrators and all staffs there are working on that plan .
i'm anticipating and excited about this !! *fly*
it's my dream to go to that holy heaven-like concert !! *screaming like mad !! * gyaaaa ~
can't wait for further info about this .
and my mom 100000% support me for this ! god, I love u , I thank U for giving me my lovely sweet mom !!
the ticket will be on sale on 20th this month .
and i've prepared all my money to but that sweet-lovely ticket xDD

gyahaha . i'm insane cos always thinking about this. but i'm HAPPY

finally, i'm here ! x)
it's good to start again my lame jounal .
i never know what to tell everytime i start to type in LJ . ==
nothing to say , nothing to do .
i'm just keeping typing my old, lame , boring , you'll-be-dead-if-u-read-this like journal . *loong sigh*
but , nevertheless, now i'm trying to improve my grammar through writing . haha .
anyway , my life start to become more and more fun these days . dunno' why , but it's good
i keep smiling and laughing all by myself *weirdo??!*

it's nice to share my daily routines *ok, I have to admit,i never type daily here*
sharing my thoughts, secrets , everything here rather than to talk to my teddy bear and that stupid mirror in my room . eventhough no one ever gives respond to my journal . haha .
but, hey , who cares ?? the point is my journal not my 'comment' !

ya ya , will start my journal soon .. or later

*sigh*
so, my heart was totally broken when my friend told me that he told her that he still like her .
both of them are my best friend and they were a couple few years ago
and i am close to him . and the girl is totally my best friend
i didn't expect soemthing like this would happen . x(
and i was very confused . what to do ..?

my best friend unfortunately knows my feeling towards him . but I kept saying that i don;t have any feeling anymore
so she told me everything .. and i put a fake smile on my face just to hide my 5 metres put xDD

what to do ? what to do ??

tomorrow , i''ll have a sorrow (hey it's ryming ??) xDD
huaah , TVXQ will hold a mirotic concert tomorrow
i wish i could go to Korea today *dreaming*
*sigh* , how lucky those who will attend this heaven-like concert ..
kind of jealous. wkwk
there will be some old songs , like "Thanks To" and "Beautiful Life" !! gyaaaa ~
wanna see , wanna hear !! TT

and of course i am waiting for their solo performances. and i am curious about junsu' solo performance
there'll be KEY from SHINee ~ x) and of course chun's . i am dying here waiting for fanvid . --
i hope i could go to their malay concert !! aaaa ~ pray for me please !! xD

I have a lot of times this weekend . so I wandered to some blogs, fansites , forums .
I found hundreds pics of TVXQ in airport (korea + Thai) . they're having SM concert today * wanna go !! gyaaaa!*
I found out that micky permed his hair ! GOD . haha, but it looks good though . especially when he wore his cap in airport . I always adore his style ~ x)


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by the way, I also want to do something with my hair . what should I do ??

it happened yesterday . I went to my friend's house after school to make our history project about 7 wonders world, and we choose Taj Mahal . at 4 p.m , my driver had arrived at my friend's house and picked me up .
I changed my clothes first before I got to my car . I spent at least 20 minutes to change clothes and fixed my hair xD . haha , you know .. girls ! and actually I was going to attend a dinner with my family that night , so I should look good right ?? xD

okay, back to the story ~

then, I went in to my car , my driver said "here~" . he gave me a small plastic. there was something thick inside. I thought it was a pack of biscuit from my mom , or whatsoever . but when I took it our from the plastic .. it was "BOLERO" single ! I thought, "how could it be ?? , BOLERO from a plastic ? my driver gave this ?". and I was so shock and happy then I screamed as loud as I could !! xD , my friend came out from her house, shocked and confused and maybe she thought " have she gone mad ? oh poor vivi ~" . I asked my driever who gave this ? he said , "hans( my brother , actually, a friend who is older than me) , he came back yesterday from Japan." . woaa ~ I realized , hans will spend 2 months holidays here from japan . but how did he bring it for me ? I knew I asked him for this single, but I cancelled it . and he wasn't supposed to but this .. right ??
I left my friend's house ~ after explaining the reasoned why I screamed xDD . fortunately, I was going to pick my brother (who gave me BOLERO) x) . in car, (after I picked him up) , he said that it was a gift from him . no need to pay him back . O.o ~ woaaa ! love him so much ! kekeke , lucky me .

I needed 30 minutes to open that single and played it . x) . I spent those minutes to think, what should I say to my brother, how could he buy this for me ? , what should I do now ? *stupid me*

and for the next 3 hours in my car [i have to pick my brother, go to my mom's office, go to pick someone's else,go to the restaurant] I was always listening to that single .. hehe . xDD
I'm satisfied !! I hope next year he would bring another single/album for me again .. *get kicks from him*

haha . happy day everyone . !

I'm just thinking that , my life tastes SWEET ? yea, it's sweet .
even though I realize that I do have problems, bad feelings, bad things still happens in my life, especially last weekend.
but if I use a simple brain and a simple heart to face my life .. the truth is that I do have a sweet life !
I have family, friends , people who care about me .
I do have a routine activities that make me bored, though . but they're not too bad .
this month, I've lost 2 persons in my life . T_______________T  . I'll miss them .
I haven't see them with my eyes . But I was contacting with them , at least 6 months .
they're gone . I dunno why I miss them so bad , even though I haven't see them . But , hey ! that does not mean they're dead . they're alive at least , haha . see ? face our lives with simple heart . then everything will turn better than before.

maybe you think that yours taste SOUR or even BITTER . start from now onward , let's add some sugar !!
1 spoon / day could make your life better and your smile brighter .
the ingredients for the "sugar" are ... simple brain and heart
easy enough, try this from now ?? ^^ .

i just read it from the indonesian fansite forum .
i didn't online since yesterday ~ and i've missed so many news T___T

*The Secret Code* .. what a great name . it's nice ~
huwaah, wish to attend that concert
it'd be nice if their japanese concert is held overseas ... *flying*

they'll be very busy! their schedule are packed until this june ~ O.o
woaaa, i hope they won't fall sick *amen* ^^

good day everyone ~

i was busy working with my project .. but my hand keeped to browse to my favourite forum xD
and I read a news ~ OMO !
toho won 1st rank in Oricon chart daily at their first day sell of BOLERO
O.o ~ *hugs them* *get kick by them* xP
really !! bolero is already sold for more than 60 000 copies ! *flying~*
XD , i feel refreshed now, and gotta do my mountain-like homework ! *ganbatte !!*

their schedule are so so so packedddd !!! even though I just read their schedule I already feel TIRED
hope they'll keep their health !

X)) ~ more over , *heaven's postman" will be released on MARCH !
my bday's month *so what ..? xDD*
it's kind of special , hua hua . weird me ~ -3-

good day everyone

this popped out of my head when I was doing my homework ..
I was tired and lost my brain .. I thought . and I turned on my music player and was listening to Bolero
as the intro said that "walking on the moon stage" and "fly" stuffs . I thought of this lil phrases, or whatever it's called.
xD . i'm not good at this , but I think it's better to write it down here , in case I'll forget *stupid me*

so ... here is it .

" I beLIEve in you .
But even in the word *believe* , there is a *LIE*
so let me just LOVE you , without believing you."

ok , i know it's lame
I told ya that I am not good at this . .. ...
sooooo , could make this better ..? please tell me xD
my head is nearly fall off , too hard for me to finish this mountainous , numerous , not-will-be-finish- like homeworks !!! aaaa ~

just dropping by ~ wanna tell U , that today *monday* .. is a holiday .. AGAIN !
it was raining last night and caused quite big flood at my school's area . soo , I got a call this morning .
xD . school , to speak the truth , I miss U so much !
wanna see my best friend who had come back from aussie ! yipeee ~ love her ! xD
how was your day ..? ^^

huaaah ~ this week was the most busiest week I ever have
it was my first week since I enter my "loveliest" school again after a loooong holidays x)

but to speak .. emm i mean to write the truth ..
actually , i had 2 days holidays this week . hahaha . cos there were cats and dogs rains these days
x) . my smart school decided to kicked out all its students for 2 days because of that beautiful rains ^^
so, I  spent my holidays with lots of joy !! xD

first day of holidays . I woke up at 6.30 AM as usual , and as usual too , I checked my handphone right beside my puffy pillow . there were so many messages from my friends , were asking "hey, do U go to school ?" , or "there is school today ?" , a question popped out of my head , " why they asked this ? what day is it ?"
aah ~ and I realized that , it was raining . but i thought that wouldn't affect anythin' , so I took a bath, preparing myself .. [as usual].
weirdly, I was really excited to go to school that day .. strange isn't it ?? ^^ . as I arrived to my school
those cars were already lined up in front of my school's gate , "what happened ??" I thought
as I wanted to get out of my car, my teacher said " there's no school today . please go home"
ooh ! crap, that sentence made me fly ~ xDD . with rush, i told my driver " go home , yipee !!"
hahaha , i went home with a lot of joy . lalalala ~
i admitted that that rain caused a lil flood ^^ . no problem I thought

so, second day ~ i got SMSs told me to just sleep nicely on my bed , cos there's no school .
my teacher had called some of my friends that the rain was too heavy so they scared that would be a flood ~

and 3rd day, I wished I could read messages like yesterday, but I wasn't . finally, i'm back xD
my hometeacher told me that she also wished that today is holiday . hahaha ~
she has a same thought like me . or maybe all students ~

yep, that's all . dunno what else could I write ..
bye ^^

ok . where'll i start ?.. well . it's 10.30 PM and i'm on my bed .
listening to music  [i'm prefering CD Player  than ipod .. i dunno why]
it's my last Saturday before I start my *boring* school life .
but it's better for me to go to school than sit still in fron of my PC through the whole holiday .
i was remembering my past school days and I'm kinda miss them
they were fun actually . but the friends' part not the books' part xD
my days were filled with laughter and jokes . they were kinda tiring as my school is kinda strict . we never get enough time to rest .
kinda sick of it .. but as time passes , I like it tough
pass all my days with books and friends of course . there were times that i felt "why my own friends did that to me ? was I that bad ? I did nothing , I always did whatever they like , never be childish eventhough I am really childish .."
that thoughts often popped out , but they understand me ! I feel really satisfied when they apologize to me
seems that all my journal all filled with *friends* ^^
cos my friends really fill my days x) . wanna say THANKS to them for always understand me and support me with my hobby and stuffs
and special thanks for my best friend, cheryl . eventhough she's in australia now, far away from me ..
but really miss u a LOT babe !
집에 가 빨리 야!! ~ 보고십다, ㅋㅋㅋ ~